We always believe our first love is our last, and our last love is our first

I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I`ve ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours.

Thank you Sayang for the amazing trip (:

18.06.2011 kami pergi hiburan ke Sibu ! Nah! lihat saja foto-foto nya di Facebook ku yah :D

Thank's TG sayang (':

It's Just a DREAM

One morning i woke up and i saw that i had got text message at 02:29 am.
It was from my boyfriend.






"I just love everything in you.
Every time you laugh or smile
I melt inside.
When i can be with you
i'm the happiest guy in the world.
What i am trying to say,
you mean the world to me
and i love you from bottom of my heart.
I'm sorry for all my mistakes and that i have been jerk.
Three words eight letters.
That means i love you.
I hope that i didn't wake you up.
Sweet dreams darling."

*It's just a dream

Heal a broken heart

What do people do with a broken heart and……..is it working?

The first time I had my heart broken, I locked myself in my room for a week and listened to “Broken Hearted” by Brandy on replay….

This is probably not the best way to heal a broken heart.

I got curious of what other people do to mend a broken heart, so I asked both male and female what they did after a break up (not logically or ideally what they would do, but REALLY, what action they took after an ugly break up). Below is what I got:

• Watch lots of movies
• Bury themselves in books
• Do drugs
• Work over time, keep being busy
• Eat furiously
• Inflict pain on self
• Get drunk
• Blame someone or something
• Find someone else, get a rebound
• Try to have positive thoughts
• Travel / move away / disappear

What do they have in common?

They are strategies of re-directing attention to something else, in order to avoid / resist / not deal with, the pain that is there.

Hoping in time the pain will go away.

Please read that again.

There is nothing wrong with that approach, but for me, when I do not deal with what there is, or try to avoid heartache and pain, it only works to a certain extend.

Like, if there is a giant pink elephant in the room, I can only pretend for so long that it is not there, even if I am a very good liar.

And whenever I see something, talk with someone or at a location that reminds me of what happened, the pain resurfaces. Very fast.

Another thing is, who knows how long it will take for the heartache to go away? Days, months, or even years?

For me, I would not say those are effective ways to heal a broken heart!

The first step, which I invite you to try on, is to notice what ways or strategies you are using to deal with your heartache.

It could be screaming, throwing things, disappearing, hiding, being tough or put on a fake smile but cry in your room.

Look at your strategies as “Oh, that is what I do.”

Whatever your “thing” maybe, it is not “bad or wrong or I shouldn’t”, it is just simply what you do when you are upset and hurt.

Those ways of dealing with heartache are probably not working very well for you, or the people around you.

So every time you notice you are using your “ways” or doing your “thing” again, just notice it like “Oh, there I go again.”

Why? Because if you look in the past, whenever those “strategies” kick in, YOU are out the window.

It overtakes you, and when you are in that state of mind, whatever you do is just covering up, avoiding or resisting the pain.

You can loosen its grip by simply noticing it, without fighting, resisting, or “I shouldn’t be this way”.

Just simply notice it

This is What My Heart Talking Now.

You have loved me since I was 14.
You thought I was the most beautiful girl. *blushing*

At first, I wasn't sure what I thought of you.

You were so open with me about your emotions from day one.

I was used to guys playing games with my mind,

but you told me right away that you thought we would be good together.

You would call me on the phone, (every other night so that you would not seem too anxious)

You could always make me laugh,

and even though I pushed you away at times

I secretly knew I loved your attention.

Finally, I admitted this to myself,

and I told you I liked you.

You wanted to be romantic,

so on our first date you took me to the Padang Bola,

and asked me to be your girlfriend.

Almost eight years later I am looking back on everything we have been through.

I have never been so comfortable with anybody in my life.

You know all of me,

and I know all of you.

The other night you said to me, "You look so grown up"

and I almost cried simply because of the fact that you have loved me long enough to notice something like that.

We have had our share of hard times,

but that is to be expected when you are young and in love.

It is amazing that we are still together,

considering how young we are,

and this proves to me that something just clicks between us.

I feel secure,

I feel happy,

I trust you,

and I love you with all of my heart.

Mother

"Mother" is such a simple word, but to me there’s meaning seldom heard. For everything I am today, My mother’s love showed me the way. I’ll love my mother all my days, for enriching my life in so many ways. She set me straight and then set me free. And that’s what the word "mother" means to me.
Thanks for being a wonderful mother, Mom!

Mom, without you, there would be no me.
Your love, your attention, your guidance,
have made me who I am.
Without you, I would be lost,
wandering aimlessly,
without direction or purpose.
You showed me the way
to serve, to accomplish, to persevere.
Without you, there would be an empty space
I could never fill, no matter how I tried.
Instead, because of you,
I have joy, contentment, satisfaction and peace.
Thank you, mom.
I have always loved you
and I always will.

L O V E

It is not enough to tell someone you love them on a regular basis if there is no passion and fire behind the statement. We often say the words, “I love you” without really feeling the meaning of them. Yeah we know the words mean, ”You matter to me… I care about what happens to you…. Ithink you’re pretty cool.” But there is so much more to it then that. When we are first falling in love, we think about the ideas of what that means. We analyze the relationship and each other. We really look at what is developing and we evaluate whether or not it is safe to say those three little words. It is a big deal to make the decision to say it to someone else. How will they receive it? Do they feel the same way? Will they say, “I love you, too” or will they mumble something about having a meeting they forgot about? After the relationship is going along successfully, we forget to really think about what it means to still be saying, “I love you” to the other person.
Haishh .

Bila saya

Dengar lagu :

Zee Avi , Bitterheart : berangan tgh main ukulele :)

Yellow Card , Everywhere : aku akan pretend aku sdg main drums.

Wonder Girls , Nobody : aku pun nak joget gedik gedik.

The Redjumpsuit Apparatus , Your Guardian Angel : tok aku duduk diam, sbb sedih.

The Killers , Mr Brightside : ni mmg aku ikut nyanyi sama!

Taking Back Sunday , You are so last summer : aku rasa benci gilak kat orang ya.

Papa Roach ,Scars : aku pun mok rock-ish jugak :) release tension bah,

Oh Chentaku, Starlight Stalker : teringat kat awak! !

Nickelback , Far Away : aku pretend aku nyanyi solo.

Ne-yo , Mad : menangis! :D

Ne-yo, Because of you : -,- emm

Miley Cyrus , Hoedown Throwdown : joget like the dance tutorial! :)

Meg and Dia , Going away : nyanyi sekuat hati.

Demi Lovato , Dont forget : nyanyi sekuat hati, geram.

Demi Lovato , La La Land : nyanyi sekuat hati, riang.

Arctic Monkeys , Mardy Bum : brangan main guitar solo :D haha

Jackson 5 , I'll Be there : buat suara kecik.

Souljaboy, Kiss me thru the phone : aku just nyanyi part dia give the number. haha i cant rap

Beyonce, Listen : aku miming.

Enrique, Taking back my Love : aku head bang jak :)

this is my playlist in Media Player

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I wish that..

Basically,
I wish that you loved me.
I wish that u needed me.
I wish that u knew when i said two sugars, actually i meant three.
I wish that without me, your heart would break.
I wish that without me, you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake.
I wish that without me, you couldn't eat.
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you want to sleep.

I am me once more .

No, I really don't think so

That you think I'd be incapable of being on my own

No, I really don't think so

That I would for a second let you back in through my door

I have spent many a nights

Even when you are by my side

I shed tears I couldn't dry

But I should thank you for

Taking my blindfold off now

I ain't jaded no more

And I take pride in being the one that said goodbye

That could only mean I am me, once more
You would turn your head the other way
So you won't have to listen to what I have to say

You assume that I needed you

But you didn't realize that

I needed no one but myself

But I should thank you for Taking my blindfold off now

I ain't jaded no more, no more

And I take pride in being the one that said goodbye

That could only mean

I am me, once more

You'll Never Find Another Love Like Mine

You'll never find, as long as you live, someone who loves you tender like I do. And you'll never find, no matter where you search, someone who cares about you the way I do.

No, I'm not braggin' on myself, cause I'm the one who loves you and there is no one else. And you'll never find, It'll take the end of all time. Someone to understand you like I do. No, I'm not tryin' to make you stay, cause I'm the one who loves you and there is no one else!